065. Birthday post

My first name is Diana. Ruby is just my 2nd name and I don't really use it offline. I was named Diana coz I was born when Prince Charles married Princess Diana. Ruby coz it's my birthstone.

Wala lang. Wala ako maisip na intro. Hehe. :D

I usually have a week long celebration mainly because I have different sets of friends -- high school, college, F4 fandom, Kpop fandom, Jpop fandom, and the newly added beki friends.

But this year, I didn't find it appropriate to have a party coz of my dad's death. I still cry everytime I go to sleep. I miss my dad so much. Daddy's girl eh.

Anyways, I can't turn down naman invites to go out coz that will be rude. I feel blessed that I have friends who never forget my birthday. :D

One of the best things that happened is that I got a call from R after 5 years of not speaking. I want to say I'm not bitter anymore. Hehe. So now, perfect na ang track record ko with the ex-es. lahat sila friends ko na! hahaha! Ang rationale lang is: why burn bridges with someone, who in one point of your life, became your most important one?! :D

Ang nakakatawa they were my "dates" for the weekend! Breakfast, lunch, coffee, dinner. Naman! Paano ako magkakaroon ng bagong bf niyan if sila pa din ang kasama ko. Hehe. Oks lang. Love spending time with them. :)

Overall, it was a good weekend except that MGG is leaving for SF na.

I definitely will have a celebration next year. Aba, that's the big 3-0. Dapat i-celebrate! :D

051. Love celebrations

 

Happy Valentines Day everyone and Cong Xi Fa Cai to my Chinese friends. :D
Ever since I became a fan of Asian entertainment, I usually adapt the Asian cultures as well.

For love celebrations, we have Valentine's Day, White Day, and Black Day.

Valentine's Day - celebrated every Feb 14. This is the time that girls will give chocolates to the boys they like as an expression of love. I gave chocolates to the men I used to like to show how sincere my feelings for them. Since they didn't know the tradition, I passed it off as trying to change the concept of the day. *LOL*

White Day - celebrated every Mar 14. This time boys who received the "chocolate of love" can show their feelings by giving the girl they like with chocolate (usually more expensive than what the girl gave). 5 years ago, I had a boyfriend by that time. *LOL*

Black Day - celebrated every Apr 14. This time the girls who didn't receive anything on White day and the boys who didn't receive chocolates on Valentine's Day gather together and eat. It was aptly called Single Awareness Day. :p

For the last 4 years, I've been celebrating Black Day and this year is not an exemption. I wonder who's gonna eat with me? *LOL*

047. Saying goodbye to a friend

Last Saturday, I received a text from a friend that Noel has succumbed to cancer. I was shocked since I thought he already won the battle a few years back. The first thought that came to mind was, oh no. not again. Last year, I lost 5 friends. I don't want to count deaths again this year. T_T

Today, we finally laid him to rest. You know what hurt me the most and made me cry the hardest during the funeral rites? His tear-stricken father said, "children bury their parents, not the other way around. I never imagined that I will bury my son today." It was the same thing my parents said when we buried my brother 15 years ago.

Noel and I had a lot of wonderful moments together which I will forever cherish until it's my time to die.

Rest in peace, Noel. I love you.


PS. Noel was my first boyfriend and my first love.

040. Emo lovelife

I watched Avatar last night with MGG and Shattershards. I think this will be my final Avatar screening. Pang-anim ko na eh! Magsawa naman sana ako. Hehehe. :D

Napag-usapan ang lovelife during dinner. Since I am not dating anyone atm, e yun mga previous loves ang napag-usapan. I blog/twit about Marc (boyfie#4) and Coffee buddy (boyfie #5) all the time coz I'm still hanging out with them. Yun siguro weird sakin, I'm friends with all my ex-boyfies. Why burn bridges with someone who, once in my life, became my most important one (MIO)?

Na-recall ko lang un reason na sinabi sakin nun naging last bf ko kaya siya nakipaghiwalay. Let's call him Roy. I must admit that I was bitter then. But I couldn't blame him coz at the time that we were a couple, I was travelling out of the country at least once a month. Dami pa kasi activities ng F4 nun! I went to concerts, fan events, autograph signing, etc. across Asia.

Even if we were together for a short time (1+ year), I saw myself growing old with him. Na-shatter yun when he said na di niya kayang ibigay ang mga gusto ko so tapusin na lang namin un relationship. At first, you might think it was all about his pride but he said that with so much sadness kaya it really broke my heart. Hindi siya pa-machong tao. He was (and still is) one of the kindest souls I've met. Bitter lang ako kasi he never gave me the chance to prove to him that I can throw it all away if he asked me to. 

I saw him last year in Serendra with his wife and kid. Nabasag ata yun puso ko.

Ang naisip ko na lang...

That could have been me...

*cue emo music*