Thursday, January 7, 2010

040. Emo lovelife








I watched Avatar last night with MGG and Shattershards. I think this will be my final Avatar screening. Pang-anim ko na eh! Magsawa naman sana ako. Hehehe. :D

Napag-usapan ang lovelife during dinner. Since I am not dating anyone atm, e yun mga previous loves ang napag-usapan. I blog/twit about Marc (boyfie#4) and Coffee buddy (boyfie #5) all the time coz I'm still hanging out with them. Yun siguro weird sakin, I'm friends with all my ex-boyfies. Why burn bridges with someone who, once in my life, became my most important one (MIO)?

Na-recall ko lang un reason na sinabi sakin nun naging last bf ko kaya siya nakipaghiwalay. Let's call him Roy. I must admit that I was bitter then. But I couldn't blame him coz at the time that we were a couple, I was travelling out of the country at least once a month. Dami pa kasi activities ng F4 nun! I went to concerts, fan events, autograph signing, etc. across Asia.

Even if we were together for a short time (1+ year), I saw myself growing old with him. Na-shatter yun when he said na di niya kayang ibigay ang mga gusto ko so tapusin na lang namin un relationship. At first, you might think it was all about his pride but he said that with so much sadness kaya it really broke my heart. Hindi siya pa-machong tao. He was (and still is) one of the kindest souls I've met. Bitter lang ako kasi he never gave me the chance to prove to him that I can throw it all away if he asked me to. 

I saw him last year in Serendra with his wife and kid. Nabasag ata yun puso ko.

Ang naisip ko na lang...

That could have been me...

*cue emo music*

8 comments:

Andrei said...

hay. ako pala yung bitter. buti ka pa kaya mo yang ganyan.

hay talaga. at isa pang hay dahil hindi ko pa napapanood yang avatar na yan. di ka nagyaya. amf.

citybuoy said...

wow. pang mtv moment yan. bagay yung when will it be me ni yasmeen. only hit nya yan. haha at debatable pa yung word na "hit."

6 times po pinanood yung avatar?! wow. ako 2x lang. nakatulog ako nung second time sa puyat. sayang kasi i wanted to re-see it in 3d. nagigising lang ako nung feeling ko tatamaan ako ng mga arrows at damo damo. haha

"Why burn bridges with someone who, once in my life, became my most important one (MIO)?
"

nakakainggit ka na you're friends with your exes. i'm just starting to learn na okay lang naman pala gawin yun. narealize ko late last year, konti nalang bitterness ko. haha

Anonymous said...

one of your saddest posts...

*hugs*

-gb

john stanley said...

hugs my emo friend...

Yj said...

jusko gusto lang pala niya mag ka baby, bakit hindi sinabi agad sayo?... hahahahaha

seriously, hindi talaga siya friend.... baka si papa piolo.... yaiy

hugsies....

Galen said...

What ifs are one of the saddest afterthoughts that can cross our mind.

lee said...

awwww... this reminds me of an article i read.

"Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?"

ps: kami na lang ata ni andrei ang d pa nakakapanood ng avatar. hay.

Darc Diarist said...

"I saw him last year in Serendra with his wife and kid."

i literally fell off my chair.
hugs.

 
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