023. Message #1

I would choose to love you in silence for in silence I won't find rejection.
I would choose to see you in my dreams for there no one owns you but me.

022. Thoughts

I am happy. But I guess it's true that you have to experience something bad first so you can appreciate and know that you ARE happy.

I had a bad day yesterday since I took a sleeping pill last Saturday night so I could rest for at least 8 hours. Your body can only take so much ne? You need to know that sleeping pills and I don't match. I had a bad history with it so I dont usually take it even if I have insomnia. But I was so tired and my body just wouldn't rest. So there.

I woke up being drowsy, replied to some texts then fall asleep again then I woke up again then fall asleep again. I did that for 16 hours. I feel so lethargic when I finally shook it out of my system.

I took Zashi out and we went for a walk in High Street to clear my thoughts and shake off this funk. We had a good breeze last night. The winds made me relaxed and contented.

I slept around 2 am then woke up at 4 feeling rested than I ever had.

I think that today is one of those days when you feel that everything is gonna be alright. You have to take everything in stride and try to make the best out of everything.

It's time for a cool change. :D

021. Venn Diagram

I love Venn Diagram but only if it's related to Math. But when it comes to real life, it's a love-hate relationship. *LOL*
Recently, I just found out a somewhat shocking, anger-inducing story. A&B had the chance to talk. A thought he knows everything. B thought the same. Both are shocked to find out that even though there is a common ground (both A&B), there are so many things that have been left out. They were able to put the pieces together but now they are not so sure if it's really the whole picture.

Apparently, the creator of the Venn diagram edits out the story so he will get the sympathy of others. o_O
That's User 101 for you. He only lets you know what he thinks you should know and he only listens to what he wants to hear.

Lesson learned, charged it to the cost center of experience! *LOL*

020. Hodge podge

Emoticon above is not related to my entry. I just want to use it. *LOL* Hodge podge of thoughts muna coz I can't think clearly e (read: sabog ang utak *LOL*)

• Got an email from a head hunter asking if I'm interested to join ABC company. I'm not interested so I said no. I love my work and the company I work for. Some of the people I work with, not much. *LOL*
• Having said that, if you need a job why not try applying here? Me thinks I should be given a recruitment fee. *LOL*
• I didn't check my email during my vacation. It took a lot of discipline to do that. As a result, I got 500+ emails to wade through this morning. That's ok. Small price to pay. :D
• I was supposed to attend the Vanness' fan meet but my flight was scheduled early Sunday morning pala. Thankfully I checked my ticket. I assumed it to be the next day. ^^;;
  
• Family forgot my arrival time so I have to wait. We went to Tagaytay for an early mass and a brunch. Sawa na ko sa Leslie's and Josephine's (where we had our dessert). We stopped by Nuvali and have dessert (again!) at Conti's.
• Took Zashi out for a walk in High Street. As usual, she's being friendly with the big dogs. Tahulan ba ang mastiff?! Isang kagat lang yan, dead na siya. My dog is a shih tzu if you must know. *LOL*
• Went to Galleria to go to Saizen, a Japanese shop similar to 100 yen shops in Japan. I was looking for Daiso which no one knows. Saizen pala name niya dito sa Manila. Super enjoy and super spend! I'll blog about it separately.
• Cebu vacation on Nov. 6-9 with coffee buddy and his family. 
• My brother set up another appointment with another OB Gyne for a second opinion. Oo na lang ako ng oo.
• I want to go to Iloilo to visit geeky bear. Di pako nakapunta dun e. I want to go to Guimaras din.
• I want to go to SG na din para sa aking 1:1 drinking session.
  
• The end coz I need to work na. Hehehe. *bow*
  

019. Kampai~

 

Zashi chillaxing in the grass while I read a Murakami book.  

Took Zashi to Bonifacio High Street for a walk. We usually do that every Sunday as part of our alone time. *LOL*

That would be my 2nd pitcher of Tequila Sunrise and 8th bottle of San Mig Light. Gotten tipsy after the first pitcher, can you believe that?! Alcohol tolerance is low, probably because I'm tired and stressed.

After the party, I went to a Noraebang session with some of my kpop friends where I release my inhibitions (from the song Unwritten). Oh I DID so I apologize for the bad weather this early morning. *LOL*

I don't drink and drive so I went to Starbucks to have my caffeine fix first before I go home. Dawn is I think the best time for reflection -- quiet surroundings and a good cup of coffee. :D

Good news is I'm happy with where I am now. Despite the stressful work, health problem (which I have to deal with asap), and not-so-good friendships, I feel contented with what I've become and achieved so far. I might need to change a few aspects in my life to get the other things I want and become a better person though.

But life is a constant change (song by Jose Mari Chan) so I'm looking forward to what life (or what's left of it) has in store for me. :D

Have a great week ahead everyone. :D

018. Happiness

Picture was taken by me.

Seeing this guy is enough to make me happy. ♥♥♥

Hopefully this weekend will be the break I need to get away from work. This will also be the time to re-assess on what and who I want in my life. Take care people. ~

017. What a weekend

Friday morning
Ruby experienced severe menstrual cramps... more painful than usual, rendering her useless for the day.

Saturday morning
Ruby went to Makati Med to see an OB Gynecologist. She has put off this appointment for 5... years... Afraid of what will happen.

Saturday afternoon
Ruby got the results of her ultrasound. A tear fell from her cheek but she smiled at the doctor and requested for some time to think.

Saturday evening
Some of her friends responded to her call of wanting to get drunk. They delivered. She was dead to the world by 3 am.

Sunday morning
Ruby had lunch with her family who had no idea what's going on.

Sunday afternoon
Ruby went to have coffee with her best bud Anne in Serendra. Anne suggested to call Mac & Karol and let them know. Mac wants to go back to Manila and be at her side. Karol braved the flooded waters of Parkwood to go to Serendra and be with her. With her bestfriends at her side (and on the phone), Ruby cried her heart out.

tbc.

016. Horrible

Sorry, just have to let this out.

It's Friday night and someone asked me on a date. In order to improve my lack of a love life just a tiny bit, I said yes.

Everything's fine. We're getting along okay.

Until I ran into some blogger friends.

McVie approached me and I was surprised and happy to see him there. He's with Misterheuge and the others.

I asked my date to wait and skipped to them to say hi. Said belated happy birthday to Eugene and all. It's not even 5 minutes but McVie pointed out my date so I said goodbye and went back to him.

You know what?!

HE IGNORED ME THE WHOLE TIME AFTER THAT. BEFORE AND AFTER THE MOVIE.

I was like what the hell?! I took a deep breath and asked him what's wrong. He wouldn't answer and just shook his head. As you might know, I don't take no for an answer so I pestered him to tell me what his problem is.

and you know what he said?!

A: You have gay friends pala.

Me: .... and soooo????

A: I don't like them.

Right then and there, I wanna punch him, as in really flatten him. How dare he say that in front of my face!

Me: Well excuse me but they are really good friends of mine (yeah feeling close, sorry!).

A: Oh, but why? (as if he finds it impossible).

That's where I drew the line. I politely asked him to take me back to the office to get my car so I could go home and rant.

Can you imagine that guy?! Arrrghhh... Either he's a homophobic arse or he's so deep in the closet that he's so afraid that  a touch from a gay guy can turn him into one.

Stupid prick.

015. Little Tokyo food trip

I went out with some of my fandom friends last night to a place close to our hearts! Naks. Hehehe. :D
It's a place called Little Tokyo where you can eat authentic Japanese cuisine. We had our stomach mind set on eating okonomiyaki and takoyaki because you rarely get those in Japanese restaurants around the metro.

I like going there during the night coz the ambiance is soo much like old Tokyo.... Hmmm, more like Kyoto I guess due to the cobblestones and Japanese doujos... You rarely get to see those in modern Tokyo. :D

Anyways, we chose Kagura coz they're the only one who served okonomiyaki. *LOL* We ordered three dishes -

Okonomiyaki

Modern-yaki (same as Okonomiyaki but with noodles)

Forgot the name of the dish but it's pork wrapped around by an omelet

They are sooo yummy and filling and delicious! Haaay. Sarap kumain!

We weren't able to eat the Takoyaki since we were soooo full already. We made a pact to return soon and just order 1 okonomiyaki so we could eat Takoyaki. Takoyaki is best eaten with beer! Sarap!

We had an enjoyable time discussing fandoms (of course!) but mostly about funny people at work. I think that's the key why we're still friends even after 6 years. We have fandoms as our common ground but we are also interested in each other's personal lives.  :D



Little Tokyo is located in Pasong Tamo beside Makati CInema Square. Most restaurants are open around lunchtime and dinnertime only.

014. Bleeding love

Di ko alam if kaya kita pasayahin. Hindi mayaman ang pamilya ako. Hindi ko kaya ibigay ang mga nakasanayan mo.

That was the reason my last boyfriend gave me when we parted ways 5 years ago. I feel a twinge of hurt whenever I remember that moment. All I remember thinking was how unfair that statement was. I don't care if he's not rich... He made me happy and I was willing to make sacrifices.

The reason for this post?!

I saw him at Serendra...







with his wife and kid.